SEVENTH LETTER TO LLOYD
GOODWIN
The last letter that I had
written to him was August of 1991. I had other things to do and was in the
process of healing in body and mind. These things take time even after you are
set free. I had some physical illnesses that I believe were a direct result of
the mental and religious abuse we suffered. If a woman is repressed and made to
feel like she is a second class citizen and that she is nothing, it has an
effect on her mind and body. Many women at GAC in Des Moines had
hysterectomies. I wondered if it could have been because of the way their very
femininity was repressed in the way they were treated and made to look because
of the way we had to dress and wear our hair and no make up, etc…I've heard
this to be true.
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For we have made a lie our
refuge and false hood our hiding place. I will make justice the measuring
line and righteousness the plumb line, hail will sweep away your refuge, THE LIE, and water will overflow your hiding
place. When the overwhelming scourge sweeps by, you will be beaten down by
it. As often as it comes, it will carry you away, morning after morning, by
day and by night, it will sweep through. The understanding of this message
will bring sheer terror. Your bed is too short to stretch out on, your
blanket too narrow to wrap around you.
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March 12, 1993
Dear Brother Goodwin:
Greetings in the name of our Lord.
I've been thinking a lot lately about
writing you another letter. I know this may be hard for you to understand but
there are many people, men and women, in your church that are very worried
about you. They feel that you are becoming more paranoid each day because of
the things you say over the pulpit. That's the only reason they repeat it to
us. Yes, we see people from Gospel Assembly frequently and they know who and what we really are.
You might be surprised how many and whom. I won't disclose that information as
I am also loyal to them and I know they have your best interests at heart as we
do. They feel that God is taking you through a process of change. What they've
told us is not gossip but only what they hear from the pulpit from your own
mouth or what they have personally experienced. After all, what is spoken from
a public pulpit should be open knowledge.
I've also learned, since I came out from
under your mind control is that love covers a multitude of sins or
mistakes, but what you are doing is no mistake. Yes, I know that you have studied
mind control, brainwashing and manipulation. I've learned a lot since God set
me free from your CULT and with the help of God, I will shout it from
the housetops! After all, Jesus came to SET THE CAPTIVES FREE.
Also, if I ever find an attorney who will
work on a contingency fee basis, I will sue for damages. For money gained
through fear and intimidation, for defamation of character, for doctor and
psychiatrist bills to overcome Posttraumatic Stress Disorder, etc. Our whole
family has had to have therapy because of it and have been advised to sue. It
is even written in my doctors (not Eidbo) reports that a lot of my illness is
stress related and was caused by the things I went through because of the
control and manipulation.
Maybe if more people come out and start
holding people like you responsible for your actions, it will stop!
I'm not the naive young woman that came to
your church 18 years ago. Praise God, I've been through BOOT CAMP and
now I'm ready to go to war! The weapons of our warfare are not carnal, but
mighty through God, to the pulling down of strongholds." Glory to His
Name! There is a stronghold in you Brother Goodwin and it needs to be pulled
down so that you can be saved from it. I really do thank God for all I learned
from my experience under your ministry. It has helped me grow up and even
though I have had to unlearn a lot of false doctrine, I still learned
some good lessons. Jesus said, love your enemies and pray for them that
despitefully use you. I can truthfully say that I have done that and that I
can in reality love you but not what you've done or what you are doing.
I do forgive you and as far as I'm concerned I could just go on with my life
but the Lord just will not let me do that. You see, what I learned was
preparing me for such a time as this. I must and will be obedient to His
call. Jesus is my captain!
You know, several of the people have
wondered, when they saw me, why, if you were a true prophet, that
I'm not dead? You very clearly made the statement in front of about 400 people
two years ago that: "If Wanda Mason is not dead within two months (or
thereabouts), God never called me to the ministry!" Not only that but that
it would not be a normal death but a horrible, fiery crash and I would be
burned and charred beyond recognition! In the next service, you said, it won't
be months but just a few days! As you know, the real reason it didn't happen
was because I went to the authorities and if something had happened,
they would have come to you. You know that it has happened before and you've
bragged about it many times. (I'm talking about the man that died in a car
accident because he was supposedly coming to kill you.) It still makes me
wonder about Brother Thomas
Oundo? That is not an accusation, but I
can't help but wonder. At first you told us that he was the first martyr, then
you told us it was a mistake and they killed the wrong man? You need to get
your story straight. Anyway, even if I died today in a horrible, fiery crash,
you are still a false prophet and God never did call you to the ministry. Face
it like a man, many others and I have heard you say many times that the way to
tell a true prophet or man of God is if their prophecies
always come to pass. It's already too late
for you. You need to step down from the ministry not only for everyone else's
sake but for your own. It's never too late to make things right Brother
Goodwin. The blood of Jesus can make the vilest sinner clean.
That's why people are talking from your
church. That's why I informed Paul Simpson of your comments about him. I also received a letter
from him with copies of his letters to you and (--). If you don't want anything
else said to people, then you need to keep your mouth shut about other people.
If you dig a pit, you'll fall into it. Remember?
I know that you are a liar because I know the
lies you have told about Sharon and me and others that have left and even those
that are still there. YOU teach people to lie. We have literature on it!
Why is it that you have to bring everyone else down on your level so that you
can feel okay about yourself?
Brother Goodwin, one thing I know is that
unless you are exposed, you will never repent. That is really your only hope of
salvation. If you are publicly exposed and still don't admit it and repent,
then at least maybe some of your followers will be set free. If they
choose to stay even after they know the truth, then at least I know I tried and
it's their own choice.
You know, people are becoming more and more
aware of cults. Almost everyone in this city that I've talked to is already
aware that Gospel Assembly is a cult. They see the fence all around the church,
they see the people
following you out to your car, like you're
some kind of God. There are a lot of people who are exposing this.
I'm really sorry for you, I do not hate you.
I pity you. I know that your days and nights are filled with terror because of
your own guilt and cover-ups. I used to believe that you were such a great man
of God. Now I don't even believe you are a real Christian. "Oh what a
dreadful web we weave when first we practice to deceive".
NIV Isaiah 2B:14-22 Again, I say this is for you: For we have made a lie our refuge and false hood our hiding
place. I will make justice the measuring line and righteousness the plumb line,
hail will sweep away your refuge, the lie and water will overflow your
hiding place. When the overwhelming scourge sweeps by, you will be beaten down
by it. As often as it comes, it will carry you away, morning after morning, by
day and by night, it will sweep through. The understanding of this message will
bring sheer terror. Your bed is too short to stretch out on, your blanket too
narrow to wrap around you.
Brother Goodwin, why don't you give it up?
You are over 60 years old. Look what you have put Sister June through. You are
not above God's law. You are not God! There is still hope for you if you will
turn and publicly repent to all those you have destroyed or tried to.
I send this with a sincere hope that you
will heed this message.
In Christian Love,
Wanda Mason
PS I just felt the need to add a few more
words.
I realize that you will probably be very
angry with this letter. I say probably, because of your reaction in the past. But
I am going to try to be optimistic and pray that God will truly deal with your
heart through this confrontation.
I know that it's doubly hard because you've
been taught all your life that a woman couldn't possibly teach a
man anything because of I Tim. 2:1-15. I'm here to say that, this has been
completely misinterpreted! ! Paul was speaking to a group of people in Ephesus
that had been taught that the true God was a woman. In fact their goddess
was Diana of the Ephesians. It came directly from the teaching that Eve
was before Adam and that she actually created Adam and these women were going
around teaching others this false teaching. In the temples of Diana, if there
was a male attendant, he had to be castrated first before he could even serve.
He even had to dress in female garb. Many men were even killed or murdered on
the altar by these high priestesses, as a sacrifice to the goddess Diana (or
whatever her name might be). Many times the priestesses stripped naked when
they did these rituals. (Hence the part where Paul says women should dress
in modest apparel. This had nothing to do with women wearing long
sleeves or dresses or wearing jeans!
The word authentein,
which the King James translates, usurp authority
means something completely different. In
the Greek, it can mean to be the author of
or even to murder. (As in the sacrifice)
They also taught that you couldn't be saved if you brought children into the
world. In fact, there are still cults around today that, if a woman does become
pregnant, they will abort the child early and actually cut it up in pieces and eat it. They feel that they are taking the soul of
the child back into themselves. They feel that they're actually doing the child
or even adult sacrifice a great honor by getting them out of the material
world.
This is what Paul is dealing with in this epistle.
There is a book out, entitled, I
SUFFER NOT A WOMAN. Looking at I Timothy
2:9-12 in the light of ancient evidence. The authors are Richard and Catherine
Clark Kroeger and Baker Book House in Grand Rapids puts it out.
What Paul is actually saying here is, women
should dress modestly (cover their nakedness).
The woman should learn (or approach the word of God in silence and submission,
not with preconceived ideas). Men should have the same attitude. Then verse 12
should read more like this. "I do not allow a
woman to teach or proclaim herself to be the author of Man".
Because Adam was first formed then Eve. Then he simply tells women that they
can still be saved even if they have children. We are all saved through the
atonement of Jesus Christ!
I just thought you might be interested in
this. You never know. Again, I send this in the hope that you might seek that
atonement.
Sincerely,
Wanda
Recommended
book: PEOPLE
OF THE LIE by M. Scott Peck
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STEVEN MWALE TO ROBERT - 1988
