MY FIRST LETTER TO LLOYD GOODWIN
By: Wanda Mason
Matthew 10:28 - And fear
not them which kill the body, but are not able to kill the soul:
but
rather fear him which is able to destroy both soul and body in hell.
(I wrote this letter in response to a threat
that Lloyd Goodwin made over the pulpit saying that I was going to die in a
horrible fiery crash and be burned and charred beyond recognition. He was upset
because I had told another Minister in Texas the truth about a letter written
by me in 1975 to my sister Sharon that he had told me to write. I only make
corrections in spelling and grammar. Words that are in brown
are what I have added.) The following links are my story and my sister,
Sharon's story if you need more information.
See: Wanda's Journal
See: Sharon's Story
Letter one:
5-18-91
Dear Bro. Goodwin:
I just wanted to say to you that you don稚
have to worry so much about what I知 doing. To assure you that my purpose is
not to tear down your ministry or cause you to suffer.
I do believe that God is sovereign and there
are many other things that you teach that is absolute truth! I知 very thankful
for the effect that your ministry has had in my life. My life has been enriched
and I知 glad.
I知 also truly sorry that what I said to Sis
Wanda Patton was taken to be much more than what it really was. Sister
June was pretty hysterical and misunderstood. I知 sorry, but she gets things
twisted sometimes.
I do have a conscience and I felt very
guilty about that letter that I wrote to Sharon sixteen years ago. You told me
to write it, you told me what to write and you asked if you could keep a copy
for your file. I said yes. It wasn稚 until two years later that I found
out you had sent those letters out around the country. I only know of two,
myself. One was to Brother Don Patton. He showed it to my Mom and Dad and even talked
to Sharon about it and the other was to the pastor of the church in Joplin,
because he confronted Sharon about it. She wasn't even going to tell anyone
about what happened but you kind of forced her hand.
(In his mind, he thought that if he sent the
letter that I (Sharon's sister) had written to these ministers, it would be
more believable to them. After all, her sister was saying it. He USED me
in his scheme, which he had thought out very well. However, he really did more
harm to himself than good because then she had to tell the truth since
these people were confronting her about it.)
Oh what a tangled web we weave, when first we
practice to deceive.
I feel that God has set me free from the law
of sin and death and that "Therefore there is no more condemnation to
those who are in Christ." Paul also said that "In Christ, there is
neither Jew nor Greek, neither bond nor free, neither male nor female." We
are equal in Christ. I appreciate my husband's leadership role in our
home and I look to him for guidance and we complement each other. But Christ is
the head of every man (mankind) and I have a direct connection with my Lord.
It doesn't matter whether we agree on
everything or not. You may never see me again, unless by chance. I'm not out to
destroy your ministry. God is the judge of all things and He is the one who
blesses and curses. I've kept all these things in my heart for sixteen years
and have stood up for and defended your ministry to everyone. I have no
maliciousness. I pray God will have His way in your life.
(I felt that the Lord had given me the
scripture below to encourage me. I felt that He had told me through this that
He would go before me and I could follow in His wake or breach. I felt
that I had been tricked and lied to by Lloyd Goodwin and I had made a
league with him and believed his lies. I didn't know what it all meant then but
it gave me comfort. I knew that God was on my side and would stand with me.)
I was reading the 28th chapter of
Isaiah the 15-21 verses. I believe this is true and this applies to someone.
Who knows whether it's you or me? Only God knows.
21: For the Lord shall rise up as in Mount
*Perazim (Baal Perazim), He shall be wroth as in the Valley of **Gibeon that He
may do His work, His strange work and bring to pass His act, His strange act.
I referred back to II Samuel 5:20 and tried
to understand how he rose up and why he was wroth.
*Perazim - (Baal Perazim) (lord of
breaches)
David said "The Lord has broken forth upon my enemies before me
as the breach of waters."
**Gibeon -
Hill City several miles from Jerusalem. The inhabitants of Gibeon tricked
Joshua into believing that they came from a long way off so they wouldn't kill
them. So Joshua made a league with them. They were cursed and made bondsmen and
were afraid for their lives but because of the league that Joshua made, they
were spared and let live.
Now, the way that this came across to me is
that it either refers to you or me. God is the judge. I don't have to do or say
anything that is not truth and neither do you. Whatever man sows, he
will reap. God's laws cannot be broken, only fulfilled or accomplished.
All I told Wanda Patton was that the letter
they received was sent without my knowledge, that you told me what to write and
that I didn't believe it was right and I was sorry. I said that I had
"heard" a lot of things, that I did not believe that Sharon was the
only one and I believed that some things might still be going on but I didn't
know. I have heard things but I don't really know except what people have told
me themselves and there have been many more than two or three witnesses.
You know all that doesn't even matter to me.
It's really none of my business. I knew all that *garbage
when I came back here. What mattered to me is that I had done something wrong
and I needed to repent because I knew that **Brother
and Sister Patton had based some of their decision to join the body, on what I
had done. I wouldn't doubt that they come to the meeting. It may even make them
stronger. You have always said, Persecution is the fertilizer for God's
people.
(*In saying that I knew all that garbage when I came back,
you have to understand that I knew nothing about the underage sexual victims at
this time. I learned a whole lot after I wrote this letter. If I had
known everything, I would never have come back.)
(**Don and Wanda Patton had spoken to me when they were in
Des Moines and asked me how things were going and I told them everything
was just great and I had never been better. That is why I felt the need to
repent to them for holding back the truth.)
I would never have said a word to Sister
June. She called me and asked me what my problem was and I said, "I don't
have a problem." Then she wanted to know why I left church and I said,
"Because God had set me free from Man's bondage." Then she pressed
me for more. I said "Sister June, I really don't think you would
understand if I told you and she insisted to know. So I told her
about calling Sister Patton about the letter. She didn't seem to understand
what I was talking about and when I told her (and she was saying, "I want
to know, I want to know") she started yelling that "you're a damn
liar" and I know for a fact that you've been to bed with over fifty
men! Now, Brother Goodwin, how does she know that? I didn't argue
with her because I don't have to come down on that level. I know it's
not true and so does my Heavenly Father. Truth needs no defense.
Then she said that she was going to call Wanda Patton and tell her that I was a
damn liar and had been to be with over fifty men! I just said, "Sister
June, you can believe whatever you want and if that's what you feel you have to
do, go ahead."
I've known the Pattons since I was a young
girl and they know that it's not true.
Brother Goodwin, I remember one time when I
was talking to you on the phone in Oklahoma and you made the comment to me
about me being a high-class call girl. I was shocked! Then when I sent
you a check for $500.00 from the sale of the house on 69th street,
you, over the pulpit, (several witnesses) made a reference to it as being dirty
money and insinuated that I was a prostitute. I've had to live with that
and it was never repented for or made right.
What really pulled my trigger, Brother
Goodwin is what you said, Wednesday night,
April 17, 1991: Quote: L.
Goodwin as close as possible:
Gen. 3:15
"The devil has made idiots out of women. They are fickle and the
devil continually makes fools out of them. They are silly and stupid and many
go haywire. There is no enmity between the devil and the man, just the woman!
She's emotional and not capable of thinking for herself! She is used by the
devil to do much, much, much more damage than a man could ever do! There's no
man on earth that could sink as low as a woman when she sinks!
When I was reaching out to God for strength
and a desire for TRUTH, for the power both to will and to do of his own good
pleasure, I came to church that night for truth and the truth was that you
were a liar! Because feasibly and scripturally what you said was a lie and
those precious women of God in that church need to be repented to. You were
saying that to Christ.
"Whatever you do to one of my little
ones, you do unto me." Quote: Jesus Christ! You need to repent to them. I
don't care what you say about me. I know whom "I am" and you can't
touch that part of me. I am a son of God. (By this I meant, we are all
sons and daughters of God that have been born into the family of God.) I have eternal life and I
know the truth about the Bible. I have a very high IQ and have studied much.
"I can think for myself!"
I have also heard from several witnesses
that some very strong threats were made on my life. That it was either you
or me and that I would die in a horrible, fiery crash of some kind and
would be burned and charred beyond recognition.
I just want you to understand, Brother
Goodwin, that a lot of people heard you say it, you called me by name and you
made some very horrible threats. I know you say that God was the one that said
it but that won't hold up in a court of law if something happens to me.
I also want you to know that I have gone to all the proper authorities in this city. My statement and others who were there and heard it with their own ears, has been transcribed and notarized and put on tape. I have also enlisted the services of a very efficient private detective and he is an authority on cults and is very interested. See: Notarized Transcript
I'm not afraid of you. My God is not the God
of this world that you preach. If I die in any kind of an accident, my spirit
will live on eternally.
Not only that, if I die, you will be the
number one suspect and anyone that works for you and that will be the first
place they come to investigate.
Also, you can throw away the wills that you
have. They have been revoked, rewritten and notarized and the church is not in
the new wills anywhere. If I die, Robert can give the church whatever he wants
to. My attorney has copies. Robert had nothing to do with this. I've encouraged
him to keep going if that's what he wants to do. I haven't discouraged him.
He's a grown man and can make his own decisions!
(We were encouraged to leave money, if not
everything, to the church in our wills. He told us that we should not leave
anything to our ungodly kids and if they were not members in good
standing with his church, it meant they were ungodly. At this point my husband
didn't even understand what I was doing and I wasn't even sure if he was going
to stay in the church or not. )
As long as you leave me alone, I'll leave
you alone!
(I honestly would not have written him another
letter but he just would not leave me alone. He would get up and tell people if
they got any thing in the mail from me to tear it up and put it in the trash or
bring it to him. He told the people that he didn't even read them but tore them
up and put them in the trash. Then he would proceed to preach his entire sermon
on the contents of the letter he got from me. Of course, most of what he said
was lies. The reason I know this is because there were people who called me and
told me everything he said.)
I have not called anyone and spewed out any
garbage. I told (-----) what I told (-----) because she wanted to know why I
wasn't going back to church and then only because she insisted on knowing the
truth. She was already discouraged and didn't care whether she lived or died
because of the oppression she was getting from her husband. She is very
thankful to be free from him and hopes he will file for divorce as soon as
possible.
I'm very thankful for the peace and joy that
I have in Christ Jesus. If I'm elect, this is just part of the process. If I'm
not, I'm out of your hair. So just be happy in the Lord and let Him fight your
battles. "Vengeance is mine sayeth the Lord, I will repay."
"My yoke is easy, my burden is
light." Praise His Holy Name.
(We were taught that if God brought us to
Lloyd Goodwin's church, then that meant that we were the Elect of God.
We were the cream of the crop and we would be in the First Phase of the
First Resurrection. Also that if you were the Elect your life had been planned
by God from beginning to end and there was nothing that you could do to change
it. You were either Elect or you weren't. That is why I referred to this
here. The other Gospel Assembly Churches were called THE OLD BODY. )
Sincerely in Christ,
Wanda Mason
