JOURNEY TO A
DREAM BY: DEBI DOWLING CHAPTER FIVE –
“THE BODY OF CHRIST” “We do not live in a perfect
world. We cannot hide ourselves in any religion; nothing will be hid.” Anyone who claims to be the body of Christ
must take a deeper look at what he believes. I believe that anyone who gives
his life according to the scriptures, according to the will of God, is a part
of the Body of Christ." As He is– so are we. That is the beauty of the
miracle of Jesus' life, death, and resurrection. I have never believed that
if one does not attend the Gospel Assembly church, he is not a part of the
“body," nor do I believe that you are not a part of the “body" if
you do attend the church. We are saved by grace. This has been on my mind all day: I think
the question to ask is W.W.J.D.? I think of Judas, how Jesus handled Him.
Judas might represent the "humanity of man.” Jesus represents "The Body of Christ.” Jesus never
excluded Judas (our human behavior is not excluded). Jesus ("The Body of
Christ) was brought to the cross by the betrayal of Judas (our human nature,
our sinful ways). Human nature will betray the body of Christ, which brings
us all to the cross, and we die– all of us– a sinner’s death. We can die like
Judas, who became his own judge and jury (I believe the pastors who took on
the name of God for themselves are surely guilty of this), and commit
spiritual suicide, or we can become members of the body of Christ and
recognize that we are no longer under the law of sin and death, but under the
law of grace. Though the body must die a sinner’s death on the cross– it will
rise again. Pray that the vision be made clear to the
leaders of the church in which you serve; let each of us pray that the Lord
bring us together. That will happen as the healing begins – that inward
healing – of the saints. I pray the ministers will have the courage to take
in the weak. So what if they lose favor with their fellow brothers? At least
they suffered for the body of Christ. Let us be a vessel of deliverance,
rather than protectors of a name that means nothing compared to the name that
we are taking on, the name of Jesus. When I got married I took on my
husband's name. If we plan to be the bride to be married to the groom (once
we give up our name: Baptist, Catholic, Pentecostal, Gospel Assembly), all
churches will have to do this to be "In the name of Jesus." He
was a man of no reputation. Or we could, any of us, be accused of becoming a
Judas. I pray that we trust in the spirit of truth that none of are deceived,
and find that it is Judas we are following, rather than the body of Christ.
That will always be a question in my mind. I think a lot of churches are guilty of
the crimes that have been brought out here, due to a narrow focus on how their
particular church was brought together. The Baptists: if you cannot conform
to their way of thinking, you are never truly accepted. It is not the Baptist
name that will save us; but within that religion are people who serve the
Lord according to the scriptures. We are saved by grace! The Catholic Church:
my grandmother was Catholic, and she has horrible stories to tell. I think
following the “body" of Christ is the wisest advise for anyone searching
for true religion. It begins with the written word; learn about the body of
Christ, seek it as pure gold, never stray from it. Jesus did not come here to
condemn the world. Does the church in which you serve condemn the world? Then
there is the scripture, “The kingdom of God is within you.” I am just thankful
to be able to talk about these things openly. Thank you for listening. We do not live in a perfect world. We
cannot hide ourselves in any religion; nothing will be hid. He who seeks to
save his life will lose it. Just because you wear your clothes in a manner to
present your carnal interpretation of holiness does not mean you are holy.
Just because you have acquired the ability to speak with eloquence doesn’t
make you SOMEBODY (or NOBODY). At least now I know the difference. I can say
I am more than a survivor. I LIVE! And I do pray for my enemies; I pray for
their deliverance; and I will do whatever I can to help bring the church to
restoration. The people need it. The church that chooses to take on the
weakness will be raised to strength, coming to the full knowledge of the
gospel. It will become a part of them. How can we experience discernment in the
spirit when we are not free? When I think of “The Body of Christ,” I picture
Him among the world. He did not close Himself up among people like Himself. He
went out among the sinners. I have heard it said: we are not going to bring
the world in “here.” “Are we afraid of getting "dirty"? I thought
these thoughts also as a child. While I was enduring my upbringing to become
a perfect overcomer, it was really difficult for me to see myself as any
different from anyone else. I had experienced it all before I reached
puberty. I lived with these people. The church was my life. The body must work together equally– can
you tell me of any church today that is doing this? I know that is the desire
of the over-all church in Gospel Assembly. Go ahead, bring out the sins, for
that is the will of God, but don't be surprise if you are not opened up as
well, as it happened to me. The name of Jesus is the only name that
will bring healing, peace and deliverance. We have to deal with the NOW. The
more I deal with all this stuff; I am realizing that God truly has a plan for
us. We need each other. He wants a people that can "learn quick and
speak slowly.” What if we are being asked to give up anything that looks like
Jesus? What if we are being asked to give up all images of our salvation?
Images such as: what parents taught us, our knowledge of the scriptures (even
Satan can quote scripture). Maybe God wants us to give Him everything we
have. Maybe he wants our good and our bad. Maybe He wants to establish
Himself in us in such a way that we will never depart from HIS TRUTH. What we
know of the men who founded Gospel Assembly is nothing. We can never have
more than half the truth. God knows all. Only God has the whole truth and
nothing but the truth. We cannot even judge ourselves. I don't quite know what to think. I do
think that God will call a people unto himself. I do not believe we can
decide if we are called. I believe we need to serve the Lord with all our
hearts. And so one is a bride member and one is not. It is like saying the
hand is better than the eyelash. The feeling that comes from statements that
I have heard recently; statements like, "If you are not in this order
or under this hand..." I hear it, I know the scriptures that back it
up, but something is not right. It is in the spirit. There is something wrong
in the spirit of the message. There is no anointing on these words. WHY? This
is a real concern. I have read over the comments regarding
the earmarks of the Body of Christ as well as the list of a cult. We are all
looking closely at Gospel Assembly on both accounts. I am going through my own
experiences in my head. When we first came to the "Body,” this is truly
the way Gospel Assembly is represented; and this is just being honest. We
were taught not to go to doctors. Ah! Ha! This is an excellent place to
start. My brother went through a plate glass door at the church downtown. He
had deep cuts between his legs. We pulled glass out of his body for days. My
mom was told to trust the Lord. I was a child and I thought it so awesome to
trust the Lord in this way as I watched the pain and suffering my brother
went through. I got a staph infection in my neck and shoulder area from a
fall that had put deep scratches in my shoulders. I ran high fever. We
trusted the Lord. People came from the church to anoint me with oil. I love
them for that. Although the experience was painful I loved these people so
much. It was my brother's prayer that made me determined to claim my healing.
I will say God was truly with us. Later my brother cut his foot really bad.
We took him to the doctor. My mom suffered so much over the fact that she did
not trust God for that incident. Of course we have already established that
she was extreme. Her heart was set on doing everything that was taught.
Either you believe or you don't. I remember the thing about the color red.
I wondered why would God make elbows if he didn't like elbows or knees? I was
at the age of 8 years old to 10 years old. At the age of 11 my life became
internal. The outside influences were just something I had to put up with. I
thought of the whole thing as just a sad, sad, mistake. Now I am 43 years old
and God is calling me back. He is showing me my past in a way I never
considered it. We have been under bondage, our ministers as well as
ourselves. God has chosen NOW for our deliverance. I am so amazed at the
reality of God. For all who have learned to trust in the one and only true
and loving God, give your testimony. Shout it to the hilltops. Rejoice in the
freedom that is from God. No regrets, as long as I know I did it all for my
love to Him. Know that He will never leave you or forsake you. AREN'T YOU
GLAD YOU MADE IT? In the eyes of man I am nothing to be desired. My father is
a king and I am his prince/princess. I just got this flashback of a meeting
where the ministers were discussing dress codes. I was a teenager by this
time. This man was on the platform talking about how he thought that women
should wear some makeup. Then he turned around and started talking about
women wearing pants and pulled his pants tight across his backside toward the
congregation. I can remember sitting there, thinking this man has got a very
serious problem. This is also one of the earmarks of the "Body of
Christ," the thrashing floor. That is one thing I can say in Gospel
Assembly: there were several options as to how one could choose to live their
life. No wonder Brother Patton was constantly teaching us NOT to follow a
man. I do remember Brother Patton saying over and over not to become a
Pattonite or Brownite. A lot of the people in the church would show up when
their favorite teacher was teaching. I can also say I do see a lot of change
in GA since I was a kid. I never thought I would see change, but I promise
you it is there. I also never thought I would know myself the way I do today,
but I promise it is there. I figure there is hope as long as you can see
change. I remember
something Brother Patton said and did while working at the store at the
church. We were going through the foods, dividing the good food from the bad.
He was talking to the young people around him. He was saying that we would be
able to trust the Lord in a way that we will receive no harm from this world.
Then he ate from a jar of peanut butter that had broken glass in it. That
incident stayed in my mind. That is how I feel about all the codes and laws.
I don't know if I am right, but the spirit in what I feel is right, so I am
inclined to believe there is truly a message in this for us all. The church has
changed since then but when I was a child sandals were not permissible. There
were other rules like; you could not do any kind of worldly activity, such as
Astroworld. I hear of young people going to such places now. It was not like
this when I was a kid. We lived, breathed, and ate Gospel Assembly teachings
and were taught that this was the only church. I truly believed that because
I could not grasp the things that I was taught that I was of the devil. I was
constantly put in a chair to have demons cast out. I prayed sincerely that I
would be delivered so I could live at peace with my family. I never felt I
would measure up and to really make matters worse I had the situation that
was invisible with my Dad who was loved and adored by all. The Lord has given
me a small part, but I will give it my all. My part is to stand here and send
praises as our brothers and sisters reach down into the root of the problem;
and all will stand amazed at His ability to be our LORD AND SAVIOR. He is the
lover of my soul. I have no need to fear the night, the terrors it may bring,
for while I’m walking with the Lord, I’m walking with the KING. We serve God by serving one another, and I
believe that is the truth that Gospel Assembly wants more than anything, as
that desire grows, and they are aware that it is truly the Lord who is
bringing our sins forward that we may obtain His mercy and forgiveness. I could
not give it all up until I knew it was truly Him. His love brought me home,
nothing else. It was all Him. So I have suffered in Christ. He called me. The
one thing I could not completely let go of was the experiences that I could
not explain, but I did experience them. They were as real as any of the
suffering in my life. BECAUSE OF HIM my soul has known such
glory, BECAUSE OF HIM I have a chance to live. I am thinking about the
relationship I have now with my father. I am alone a lot. Since I have a
tendency to continuously strive for understanding, and I will use any medium
to seek understanding, especially when I was so uncertain about the things of
God, I would read my Bible. I saw the Bible as a book more readily available
to show our society from the beginning, a book of history filled with
romance, mystery. I read it to solve the mystery of life. Sound familiar to
anyone? I remember just a few
years back I had become so engrossed that I read it cover to cover. I was on
my third time around when I began to see humanity and myself. I saw it all as
one. That is the best way for me to describe it. The English language is so
limited when it comes to expressing insight, whether it be of the things of
God, emotion, sometimes even the events of science. I believe there is a lot
of stuff discovered in science that we have not even heard about because they
have not yet found a way to tell it where people would not go into a panic
(just a thought for the thinkers out there). If you are sitting
there thinking that I think too much, that's ok. I've been told that a lot
anyway. What I saw is how the light of the New Testament reflected the darkness
of the Old Testament. There was a lot more to this revelation. I called my
dad, so excited about the way I was receiving this. The spirit of it was so
healing. My dad told me of the teachings in the church that this is true; and
I thought I had received something unique, a first-time experience. I am
still feeling the blessing of that great discovery I am glad to be able to
share this with you all. I have truly come along way and I can see
that the church has too. I still feel a little strange. I think that is
because of my background. I am not sure as to what is due to my life at home
-vs- the true teachings of the church. I know that my life has to show some
flexibility because I am to become a witness to many people; each with their
own vision. I think of Paul as he said: I am made all things to all men, that
I might by all means save some. If I get so caught up in the laws of the
church I feel that I gain a status, which is not my goal. I am not looking
for status. The best I can do is to be myself. I don't believe that our walk
with God is based on how we dress. What if I was called to minister to
prostitutes or even more simply put, to women of abuse. The over emphasis of
dress code would make the words dead in such an atmosphere. Then again I am
not aware of our church doing such a ministry yet. I automatically go into a
flexible state when I am in a crowd. Does that make me "lukewarm"
or sensitive to people? Written by: Debi
Lynn Dacus, Henley, West, Dowling I want to live my
life as though its not my own; I want to give my
sacrifice to the right hand on the throne; for if not for
Him you know that man would be ALONE; 'm livin, by the
spirit of God and its takin me home I claim the victory for all. I pray for the ministers as they
come forward to dance this victory with me. A table has been prepared. A
celebration is waiting. God's people are delivered. Please come to the feast
of forgiveness. You have preached His name in the Synagogues, now bring His
name to its fullness that all may be saved. The church has suffered as I have
suffered; they shall rejoice as my soul sings praise unto our Lord. I am so
glad to be a part of this. I really thought it would not happen in my
lifetime, which proves how little I know. Thank you, Lord, for loving me. I
can't explain, yet, there is no mystery, for as He lives, I live. Now my
heart can sing glory and honor and praises to our King. CHAPTER SIX–
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