FIFTH LETTER TO LLOYD GOODWIN
"Son of man, I have made you a watchman for the house of Israel; so hear the word I speak and give them warning from me.  When I say to the wicked, O wicked man, you will surely die,' and you do not speak out to dissuade him from his ways, that wicked man will die for his sin, and I will hold you accountable for his blood.  But if you do warn the wicked man to turn from his ways and he does not do so, he will die for his sin, but you will have saved yourself."
(I wrote this letter from Oklahoma after I had sent the fourth letter to him but before I had received his letter that he sent to me on the 19th of July. I was at my parent's home at the time. Lloyd Goodwin had always told me that I needed to lose that Youngblood spirit. I use to pray for the Lord to show me what that meant. I now know that he didn't want anyone to have a mind of their own and I guess the Youngblood family is known for that. He tried to destroy the connection in families so that he could be the only family we had. He told me one time that I didn't owe my mother anything. But my Mother was there for me when I needed her.)
July 20, 1991
Dear Brother Goodwin:
Greetings, in the name of our Lord. I know that you probably would rather not get another letter from me. If I were in your shoes, I'd probably feel the same way.
Brother Goodwin, at one time, I defended you, no matter what. I felt that you were the greatest man of God that ever lived, the greatest teacher. I did, with all sincerity of heart. In my wildest imagination, I could never have dreamed that I would be doing what I'm doing now. It's beyond me. God is doing it through me. He has always warned his people before he brought his judgment. In some cases, they repented and turned. In many, they went on in their wicked ways and were destroyed!
I know that all my life, I've prayed, "Jesus use me. Lord, I want to be a vessel of gold in the house of the Lord." I've always had a heart after God, since I received the Holy Spirit at 11 years of age. At 12 years, I was debating with ministers and they didn't know what to do with the scriptures that I showed them. When my friends were going to ball games, etc. at school, I went to church. I would not be a cheerleader because it would interfere with church.
I'm not saying that I was perfect (because I certainly wasn't) but I never really felt insecure because I felt that I carried the Lord in my heart. I had a priceless treasure. We were always poor in material things but our family was rich in the important things. We knew that Mom and Dad loved each other and us! We were taught about love in the real sense. My Dad may have been a country boy but I guarantee you, he was a man after God's own heart. I feel very privileged that God allowed me to be born into this Youngblood family.
You know, Brother Goodwin, we've all made mistakes. I've made mistakes that I was very ashamed and sorry for but I remember a message one time that you put in the church, titled, Hope Maketh Not Ashamed. I never forgot that. The mistakes are not really to be ashamed of, if you learn from them and it turns you around. It's like a child touching a hot stove. It hurts! You might accidently touch it the second or third time but surely not intentionally! I suppose, if you seared your hand to a certain point, it would kill the nerve endings and you wouldn't feel it any more. I don't really know. I don't wish to try it.
Brother Goodwin, I really want to do things right and God's way. If you are my brother, I've tried going to you so we could make things right. Up to this point, you have not heard me but you keep increasing in untruths. "Oh what a dreadful web we weave when first we practice to deceive!" Satan was Eve's deceiver when he said, "ye shall not surely die!" She made a covenant with Satan, but she did die, didn't she? You have encouraged others to lie and deceive. There is absolutely no justification for that! Rahab saved lives, you are only covering up your own skin! God said, "if you say you are without sin, the truth is not in you for we have all sinned and come short of the glory of God."
James 5:16 - He said we should confess our faults one to another and pray for each other, that we might be healed. 19 & 20 - Brethern, if any of you do err from the truth and one convert him, let him know that he who converts the sinner from the error of his way shall save a soul from death and shall hide a multitude of sins.
II Timothy 2:25 In meekness instructing those that oppose themselves, if God peradventure will give them repentance to the acknowledging of the truth. 26 and that they may recover themselves out of the snare of the devil, who are taken captive by him at his, will.
Galatians 6:1 Brethren, if a man be overtaken in a fault, ye which are spiritual, restore such as one in the spirit of meekness, considering thyself, lest thou also be tempted. (7) Be not deceived, God is not mocked, for whatever a man sows, he reaps. (8) For he that sows to the flesh shall of the flesh reap corruption; but he that sows to the Spirit shall of the Spirit reap life everlasting.
Brother Goodwin, I know that you already know all these scriptures. Most of them, I've heard you preach about but God is really trying to warn you. He loves you.
I was reading in Ezekiel this morning and this scripture really stood out to me and I felt I must relay it to you.
Ezekiel 33:2B - When I bring the sword upon a land, and the people set up a man as a watchman: If he sees the sword and blows the trumpet and warns the people. Then whoever hears the trumpet and takes not warning when the sword comes and takes him away, his blood shall be upon his own head. And this also goes the other way around. The blood can be on the watchman's head if he fails to sound a warning.
He went on to say in verse 11 - I have no pleasure in the death of the wicked but that he turn from his way and live. (12) The righteousness of the righteous shall not deliver him in the day of his transgressions; the wicked shall not fall in the day that he turns from his wickedness, neither shall the righteous live in the day that he sins. (13) If the righteous commit iniquity, all his righteousness shall not be remembered, but he shall die for his iniquity. (14 -15) and "if the wicked restore the pledge, give again that which he has robbed (peoples reputations, money received under false pretenses, etc.) Walk in the statues of life, without committing iniquity, he shall surely live!"
Brother Goodwin, I know that love covers a multitude of sins. I know that you have suffered reproach but in all honesty, it's been for your own sins! When Nathan approached David for his sin with Bathsheba, he readily admitted it and repented for it but when you were confronted, you denied it and used lies and deceit to murder other's reputations!
You must repent! Sharon's name needs to be publicly exonerated, to all the ministers that you lied to, to protect your own reputation and to all the people. You need to put it on tape and I believe you should repent to her personally. Also to anyone else, even to (-----) for accusing him of being a male prostitute! I never did believe that. The reason I didn't believe that is because I knew the lies you had told about me. It was really hard for me to believe anything you or anyone else in the church said, because I knew that you had taught the people to lie! "Righteous Deception." You need to repent to (-----). You have made her a mindless puppet. Why else would she stand up in band practice and tell them that "there's some woman going around telling people that I cussed her out, when the fact of the matter is that "I don't even know a cuss word" and she's the one who cussed me out!"
Brother Goodwin, you taught her to lie! Years ago (over ten) when Glenn and I had our problems after Robert and I had our very short-lived affair. After we had found out that (-----) was (supposedly) pregnant with Lee Ray's baby and that the two of you had been fighting over her and all the other garbage (these are not accusations, but facts I heard out of people's own mouths.) We felt like if it was OK for our leaders to do it, then it must be OK for us. But we could not do it even though we tried.
Anyway, (-----) came to the back to pray for me and I said to (-----) “You've never given a "damn" about me; why are you trying now?" Now Brother Goodwin, I heard you say that damn means - half a penny or two cents or something like that, also I've heard you use words a lot worse than damn over the pulpit! But then you get up, when I'm not even there to defend myself and tell the people that I cussed (-----) out like a sailor! Then she mimics (puppets) the same thing to the band! (I have eye and ear witnesses.) How can anyone believe or trust anyone there? What about (-----) when she became pregnant by (-----) and you told her to get an abortion? Did you not want to mar the Goodwin name? (As well as others.) What about your own nephew's wife and those who call you brother and pastor and stand with you faithfully? What about their wives and daughters?
You must repent or you will reap all that you've sown.
Again I say, “You must repent and make restitution NOW.”
Sincerely in Christ,
Sister Wanda Mason