LAST LETTER TO LLOYD GOODWIN
Galatians 6:7-8 Do not be deceived: God cannot be mocked. A man reaps what he sows. The one who sows to please his sinful nature, from that nature will reap destruction; the one who sows to please the Spirit, from the Spirit will reap eternal life.
The reason that I wrote this letter in the first place is because my son, Jeremie and I were in a store doing some shopping and two of the sisters from the church were in there. I always tried to be friendly when I ran into some one from the church and if I came in contact I would just try and stay out of their way or just say hello or something. One of these women, an older sister, had been a very dear friend for many years and had been like a Mom to me. The other one, I had never met. They approached us and the older lady gave me a hug, if I remember right and said hi to Jeremie and said that we needed to come back to church. I knew that she must not remember or her memory was fading as to what had happened. However she knew Jeremie and I very well. I explain in the letter what happened after that. The other woman was very sweet and had a genuine concern and was just trying to win us "back to the Lord." I know that it was not her who twisted the words that were spoken in the next service because I knew how Lloyd Goodwin had twisted the words about so many other things. By this time, I didn't even think about it too much unless I ran in to someone from the church. But there were many people that I really missed.
From reports that I got from friends, I was told that he made the statement that I had told her that I was his worst enemy, which was far from what I had actually said. I have never been Lloyd Goodwin's or anyone else's enemy for that matter. I tried to be a friend. I don't know why but I just had to write this letter and in my heart, I knew that it would be the last one. Less than four months later, he was dead and I was glad I had written it.
MARCH 26, 1996
Dear Brother Goodwin:
I know that it's been several years since I have written you a letter and I said then that I wouldn't write anymore but I just felt like I should write, at least one more time.
I even write, Brother, because since I wrote last time, I have learned a lot. I'm really sorry that it had to be the way it is. This was never my intention, whether you believe that or not. There is a real sadness in my heart, not only for you, but also for all those who were my friends, brothers and sisters in Christ. I still love all of you and pray for you. I'm not sad for myself because God has blessed me in so many ways. I have never been more at peace with my Lord and my life than I am now. We have a good Christian home because Christ is the center of it and not MAN.
I know that God loves you also, just as much as He loves me. I never was your judge and never will be. God is so much more tolerant and long-suffering than we could ever be. We are all brothers and sisters in His eyes. We're all just at different stages of development. When we grow up, we really should quit acting like little brats, but should never quit being children in our ways of forgiving etc.... After all, we must become as little children to enter the kingdom.
I just wanted to respond to one of your recent sermons about me. I hope that it was (-----) that mistook what I said and that you didn't twist it. First of all, I did not seek her out. I didn't even know who she was. She was with Sister (----) and she was the first to speak. Sister (----) kept telling us that we needed to come back to church and I very gently said that I didn't think you (LLG) wanted us to come back and (---) spoke up and said, "Oh yes he would!" She said this over and over. I just looked at her and said, "You don't know who I am do you?" She said "no" and I said:
"Well, Brother Goodwin considers me to be one of his worst enemies (not that I was your worst enemy) and if anyone saw you talking to me, you would be in trouble." Then she said, "Oh no, he has really changed and even got up and repented for the way he used to be and that you had been teaching about how we all walk to the beat of a different drummer." I said, "Well that's good because he needed to repent and he still has a lot of repenting to do." Then they just kept saying that we needed to come back and I just finally said, "I'm very thankful for everything that I had learned from you and the church but that I had moved on and really wasn't interested in going back. I told her that I could tell her things that would make her hair stand on end but I wouldn't and that as long as she was happy and didn't feel that her freedom was being taken from her to stay and enjoy God's blessings. I really meant that too!
You know, Brother Goodwin, I really do appreciate all that I've learned from you. I've learned to "Eat the straw and spit out the sticks" so to speak.
A lot of people have been hurt very badly by you but also helped by you. The only power that you have over a person's life is what they give you. It's just that most people don't know that.
I know that God's judgment is righteous and that He really allows us to judge ourselves.
Do not be deceived: God cannot be mocked. A man reaps what he sows.
Be sure of this: The wicked will not go unpunished, but those who are righteous will go free.
It's just simply a matter of sowing and reaping. We reap what we sow. I have only told people the truth.
"You shall know the truth and the truth shall set you free."
My prayers are that you will allow the Holy Spirit to guide you into all truth so that you may go free.
Sincerely in Christ,